Falling apart at the seams...

[trinsy]

I found out on Sunday that Camryn got into all the classes she needed/wanted to take.  Yesterday, I found out that Hannah, who was 90% sure she wouldn’t be accepted, got into the Peace Corps.  I am so happy for both of them.  More than happy, I am thrilled!

I found out something else yesterday: Due to a horrible oversight, I didn’t get the Cal Grant.  Which means, basically, that I can’t go to college this year.  I was upset, to say the least.  I don’t think I’ve cried so much since my mom started dating Tim.  Actually, I think I cried more than when she started dating Tim.  I think the last time I cried that much was when I found out my dad was leaving.  Which is stupid, really, because it's not like I can’t take next year off.  I’ll only be seventeen this year, so if I take a year off I’ll still be right on track.

But it wasn’t so much whether or not I’ll be on track that upset me.  It’s frustrating to me, because everyone else’s lives seem to be going according to plan, and mine isn’t!  I was going to graduate before I turned 21, and then travel the world, or get an internship or something.  You know, get school out of the way.  It’s not like I couldn’t take a year off.  It’s just that, at 17, what would I do?  Trust me, I was considering this option six months ago, and I researched it thouroughly.  There’s nothing you can do at 17.

As if to add insult to injury, I lost my job this afternoon.  So now I have no money and no job.



MY LIFE IS FALLING APART!!!!!!!!!

AAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Note: Due to extreme stress, Trinity has been temporarily removed from this post.  She will return after the Calming Draught kicks in.

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[avonleigh.livejournal.com]

*hugs you very very tightly* I'm praying really hard, darling.

I love you, so much. *hugs you agin*