trinsy | “I’m glad I have you … here at the end of all things.” (Reply)

I thought you would all be interested to know that I have submitted chapter 33 of Canis Majoris. It’s so weird to think that I only have one more chapter left. I’ve been with Jocelyn and the rest of them for nearly a year now, and it’s strange to think that it’s almost over. I almost don’t want to write chapter 34, because then I will have to say goodbye to Jocelyn forever. I’ve abandoned loads of characters before, but that was easy, because we had drifted apart. But I’ve never completed a journey with a character and then had to say goodbye forever. I think, in some incredibly small way I know how Jo must be feeling right now. I mean, I’m excited to complete this journey (something I’ve never done before), but I’m also incredibly sad. The only character I’ve ever had a longer relationship with is Blayke (three years with her), and we just drifted apart and ended on quite amiable terms, so it was all good. But Jocelyn and I are still pretty close, and after all that’s happened…

Jocelyn, I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry. But there was nothing I could do. I worked it out as best I could. You worked it out as best you could. We all did the best we could, and you can’t ask for more than that.

But I’m just as sorry things had to end up this way as you are.